I have been in low spirits lately for the past few weeks, and one of the reasons is, I’m getting sick and tired of my every 3rd weekly herceptin infusions. There’s all of 18 of them and I have 9 more to go!
Prior to my 9th herceptin infusion, the med techs at the laboratory could no longer draw blood from where they usually get it – the inner elbow for my CBC and blood chemistry tests. It took all four of the med techs and 5 tries and all were unsuccessful! Ouch! Being pricked with big needles 5x and withdrawing them 5x is no joke. Against the advice of the nurses at the Chemo room, they finally were able to draw blood from the veins in my right hand. (It would be the nurses’ problem to look for the IV-ready vein in my hand when the time came).
I’ve had 8 regular chemos and 9 herceptin infusions already. That means my veins took real beatings from the needles for CBC and chemotherapy. And the periodic diagnostic tests! Every cancer patient is always anxiously waiting for the results. Who wouldn’t be anxious when the Tamoxifen and the radiation themselves can probably cause cancer in other areas?
Aside from my condition, there are other things not going well in my life lately. The social worker was annoyed that I keep coming back for medical assistance – for Herceptin meds actually; my sister stopped calling after our argument over our presidential candidates and that rude and crazy candidate is topping the poll surveys ; my nephew no longer offer to drive me to the grocery because, with my hair and former weight back, he probably thinks I’m well enough on my own; medical expenses are continuing, but I am no longer exempted from solicitations and picking the tab when we eat out, and I can’t even get a real job or go into business full time; the offspring of the choir guitarist just died because of leukemia at 23 years of age, and another friend’s breast cancer metastasized after only 2 years.
Not that there’s nothing to be thankful for – it did rain last week at the peak of summer and threat of El Nino. I probably need to go do my gratitude list to lift my spirits. I’m sure I can think of more….