In the Bible, the words “Fear Not” has been mentioned so many times. If I remember correctly, someone said about 87 times. Jesus knows how we feel – that we are assaulted by fears on all fronts. This is especially true for cancer patients or survivors like us. We are wary of the side effects of chemotherapy, radiation and oral maintenance drugs such as Tamoxifen. We get palpitations as we await the results of our periodic diagnostic tests. We feel weak and financially unstable esp. for those who have to undergo more procedures beyond chemo and radiation. And there are other body parts we need to deal with. We have other concerns other than our health or some unfinished business we need to go back to after the treatment. As for me, I easily get agitated when confronted with some of my concerns. A few weeks ago, I received a letter that upset me so much I broke out in rashes and my blood pressure became unstable that the dentist who was supposed to pull my tooth recommended that I seek out a hospital-based dental clinic for any emergencies. It turned out that there was nothing to worry about and I spent weeks stressing about it and still, my impacted tooth not extracted.
But nobody is secure: The daughter-in-law of a friend just died. She fainted or fell asleep in the closed and locked car in the parking lot upon arriving there. She was even pregnant and she was too young to die. Meanwhile, an Italian priest who says Mass in our chapel had a stage 4 lung cancer at 72 years and is still alive and kicking 7 years after. Only God knows, so there is no need to stress ourselves.
“For only a penny you can buy two sparrows, yet not one sparrow falls to the ground without your Father’s consent. As for you, even the hairs of your head have all been counted. So do not be afraid: you are worth much more than many sparrows.” (Matthew 10-28-31)
I just have to keep on reminding myself that I have overcome trials by banking on God’s promise to ask intently and it will be given to me. Jesus offers a balm to our fears.