When the time to go for my bi-annual check up comes close, I usually get quite depressed, having to undergo the hardships of the diagnostic tests again, then waiting in line for my oncologist to see me which usually takes about 3–5 hours, depending on the number of patients. I was resigned to this situation but then for the second time, I was asked if the oncologist-reliever would do, as my oncologist had to attend the funeral of her aunt. The last time I had to decide was before I came over. This time it was unexpected. If I had known earlier, I would rather go on another date as I was going to ask my onco if it is about time to change my anti-cancer maintenance drug although most of the results of my diagnostic tests were good, except for that a few RBC were found in my urine, and I had high LDL.
But I didn’t want to go back for the check-up, and I had good vibes with him the last time. I feel more relaxed with him, and the fact that I do not have to wait long is inviting. Every time my oncologist takes my blood pressure, it is usually high. How come with this doctor, it is always normal? Maybe for the reasons given above. Maybe I’m already too stressed out waiting when my oncologist gets to me, hence the high BP with her. He also explained everything as he looked over the results of my diagnostic tests, even giving me the website to check out some details of latest researches on anti-cancer drugs.
Most of the patients left when they learned the lady doctor can’t make it. There were just 3 or 4 of us left as against 12 or 15. I don’t know if I made the right decision. She wouldn’t have let him substitute if he wasn’t good enough. And there are times when I can’t help but think that even if she is good, she is probably too exhausted not to miss out on something.